exasperated sigh.

this isn't my favorite song by the fratellis but it fits todays posting.

it is entitled "everybody knows you cried last night" and i actually... uhm, did cry last night. but until i typed that just now only my cat knew i cried because she was trying to comfort me which was weird and possibly she just wanted food... but still.

this is my cat --> her name is Sally. she is 4.

you want to know why? I had a goal. i had a goal to write 1000 words for my story on Cinco de Mayo. I saved it on my flashdrive so it would be safe. AND DO YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED?? it was corrupted and i couldn't open it!!! I tried to open it for two hours but, sadly, i could not. (i only need 1,200 more dollars to get a macbook with all of the features i want... or else this thing can have its final breakdown and die peacefully forcing my parents to buy me a new computer. i didn't even pick this one out like i was promised i'd be allowed to do. my dad's computer broke so he bought this one and used it until his was fixed and THEN he gave it to me as my birthday/going into highschool present. thanks dad) so i got upset. technology frustrates me because its so much smarter than me. its like its taunting me. its like 'haha haha, guess what? you are d-u-m-b dumb dumb dumb. thats why im going to do ths to make you mad. ha ha ha ha ha.' so i cried. i don't like technology making fun of me. and then i watched Golden Girls and felt much better.

so then TODAY happened. guess what I found out TODAY. my uncle's ex-wife and her hghschool dropout daughter are coming to stay with us over the summer because they are homeless. yay... the girl. she has a tattoo of her exboyfriend's name on her back, dropped out of *not highschool but* eigth grade. she is currently trying to quit smoking. all im going to say. now my peaceful summer is going to be messed up by craziness. and i'm a pushover. i am a HUGE pushover. they will do thousands of thngs that really pops my bubbles and im not going to say anything. because im a pushover. yay. my mom didn't even tell me about this until yesterday. they are moving in sunday.

another decision that i apparently wasn't needed for is my NEW BEDROOM FURNITURE. my mom found furniture that she really liked. she asked me about it and i told her really didn't like it. it was nice but not my style. not my style at all. my opinion didn't matter though because she wanted it. its not even going to be her furniture. this s my furniture im supposed to take to college. thankyou mother.

i am going and hoping tomorrow will be good.